If there’s one thing I’ve learned in my 27 years of living, it’s that life very, very rarely goes as planned. And, even if most of it does go as planned, there are bound to be bumps and jolts along the way. I think it’s important to remember to always be grateful for the things and people I have, to be thankful that I have a warm bed to sleep in and a roof over my head. It always puts things into perspective for me since it’s easy to get caught up in the details and to forget the big picture.
With that said, I am thankful for where I am in life right now. As many of you know, I started a new job about 5 months ago after struggling supremely in a job I wasn’t entirely happy with. I had so wished that someone on the inside who knew me well would have told me that the job probably wouldn’t be a good fit for me or that I was going in with expectations that would never be met. But, sometimes things take a leap of faith. Plus, I was desperate for a job. The attorney economy was really rough when I first graduated so I took what I could get. All in all, I learned valuable lessons from the experience and most definitely about what I personally wanted out of my career. It’s hard to really know whether you’re going to like a job until you give it a try, but thinking back, there were so many questions I wish I had asked and so many things I wish I hadn’t ignored. It would have spared me the unhappiness in the end. Beggars can’t be choosers though…at least that was my mindset at the time. It’s so weird to think that I’ve been a law graduate for over a year now. I’ve finished my first year continuing education credits already, and I’ve been a licensed attorney for a year. One. Year. I just can’t get over that. School went BY SO FAST. Life is going by so fast. I really am enjoying being done with school though, and I don’t think I’ll ever want to go back. I did fleetingly think about getting my PhD in public policy, but I highly doubt that will become a reality. But, who knows? I’m not one to completely rule out anything. I’m not afraid to take chances. For now, I’m ready to take on the next chapters of my life sans school.
In any event, my current job is the perfect fit for me. I enjoy the people I work with, and the amount of writing I do, and that my position is neutral, and that my overarching goal is to keep children’s best interests in mind. I also love that I can have a life outside of work without billing requirements hanging over my head all weekend or stressing about something I’m not that thrilled is included in my job description. I feel comfortable and yet still feel challenged. At a certain point everyone outgrows their current role – you learn more and grow more and want more out of the job. That’s natural. And of course, no job is ever going to be perfect, but I think I’ve found my place in the career world and can continue to build on this experience and see where it takes me. The key to life is to have plans, but to make sure you’re not entirely committed to those plans, regardless as to what they are. God often has a different plan for us, a different lesson He wants us to learn through devastation or hardship. I’m learning to trust that God has everything under control.
In other news, I’m still adjusting to my husband as a full-time student. It’s been a few months now since he took the leap and left his job to focus on a career change and school full-time. I’m still not used to it, but I’m reluctantly relinquishing my fear of money and walking into the unknown. I fully support my husband, and I know ultimately this is a good move. He supported me through everything, and now it’s my turn.
Dan and I also have had conversations about children. I’ve gone back and forth on children so much, but I’m reaching a point where I’m feeling more ready to take that leap. I’m working full-time, and I feel as though we are in a good place. Of course, we’re waiting until Dan finishes school and is working again, but the prospect of trying for a baby in the near future is really exciting.
Although Dan and I have had to put traveling on the back burner to save money, I am looking forward to my trip to Dallas in February to celebrate my best friend’s 30th birthday. We try to see each other at least once a year, and this will be this year’s annual visit. I am so excited! I’m not going to lie though, when I found out Ebola had touched down in Dallas, Texas, I was a little scared at first. I hope I don’t have to re-evaluate my plans, but I’m sure it will be fine. Positive thinking. It’ll probably be the only trip I get to take for the next year and a half as well. Dan and I have already started talking about what kind of trip we want to take when he graduates.
I can hardly believe Dan and I’s 4 year wedding anniversary is right around the corner! Unfortunately, we’re going to have celebrate our anniversary a day or two early this year since I’m scheduled to be in Texas on the day of our anniversary. We usually go to a fancy dinner, and each year our goal is to try a new restaurant in our city – one that we have never been to. I’m excited to see where we’ll end up this year. As always, I am so thankful for my husband. He appreciates all my quirks, forgives my mistakes, loves me completely and deeply, and I am so, so blessed. I have no doubt we’ll be together until death do us part.
Last but not least, I’ve been reading a lot more lately. I finally finished The Fault in Our Stars by John Green. I know, I’m way behind the times. But, oh my goodness. I was a sloppy mess of tears and boogers from halfway through the book until the end. Such a touching way to approach the subject of cancer and the strength required in the face of death. I was deeply moved.