I really want to keep this blog updated more, and I have really been trying in this department. I like to have promised content that everyone can count on, and it sort of forces me to post at least twice on a weekly basis. But, I don’t want this blog to lose its intimacy. I like that I have my own corner on the Internet where I can express my feelings and emotions freely and openly. It’s been a great way to cope with stress, and odd feelings. I will make every effort to update this blog on more than a twice-a-week basis, and I’m just ashamed that I’ve neglected this little spot on more than one occasion.
My life lately has been one, big blur with not a lot of fun packed in between the blurred segments of life. I can hardly believe that we are in the middle of October. I’m exactly 7 months away from graduation, and the gravity of all of it is starting to hit me. I’m so very burnt out to begin with. I decided to be over ambitious and take on 6 classes this semester, but I forgot how much of a mistake that would be when senioritis kicks in. Luckily I only have two exams this semester, which means only two classes to outline. However, my other 4 classes have required papers, which is equally draining sometimes. I’ve never been a procrastinator so I’ve tried to start the writing/researching process, but its been hard to get into all of it. For the sake of my decent GPA, I’ve gotta keep pushing myself. My sleeping cycle is not on a decent schedule at all. I stay up late at night to finish homework, and sleep late to compensate for lack of sleep. Thus, the cycle begins. I’ve tried several times to make myself put down work and go to bed, but it’s hard for me to stop in the middle of something.
I’ve also been sort of “down and out” lately. If I know myself at all I think its because I haven’t had a lot of fun on the weekends, and I’ve become homesick for my Mom. My mom is my best friend, and when I go several weeks without talking to her I feel empty. I check in through email when I don’t have time to speak on the phone for hours, but nothing beats my mom’s gentle, reassuring voice. She makes everything better. I did get the opportunity to visit my brother-in-law this weekend in Wisconsin. He moved there a few months ago to work at a large software company, and I so enjoyed getting away from the mundane, just my husband and I. I can always be myself around these two. It’s odd to think I’ve known both my husband and my brother-in-law for almost 9 years. They are truly my family, and it’s the greatest feeling in the world when you can be yourself 100% around someone. We didn’t get very nice weather last weekend, but the changing fall leaves were absolutely beautiful.
With graduation approaching the inevitable job search is coming up quickly. I’ve already begun the search, but I don’t expect to really
find much until after I pass the bar exam unless I land something at a job fair or somehow a position opens up at the last public sector position I’ve had or I just simply get lucky. I do have some plans next semester, and all I can be is optimistic that something will work out. The job market is still weak, and while I have faith that I will find something in the end, it’s a truly uneasy feeling when you’ve accumulated a nice amount of debt to make your goals come alive. Such is life, and I won’t ever give up on it.
While all of this might sound a little depressing, 2013 is shaping up to be a crazy year. I have a lot to look forward to, and I plan to savor every second of all of it:
- December 20 – January 10 — Florida (home, sweet, home!)
- January 18 – January 21, 2013 — Vegas
- March 21 – March 24, 2013 — Cruise to Bahamas (early graduation present from my mom)
- May 19, 2012 — Law School Graduation
- May 22 – May 27, 2013 — Costa Rica (My graduation present to myself)
- July 30 – July 31, 2013 — Sitting for the Illinois Bar Exam
That’s more fun than I think I’ve ever experienced in one year. I’m very much looking forward to indulging in one of my favorite activities: traveling. I’m also looking forward to meeting up with friends, and enjoying life outside the confines of law school.
Dan is studying for SOA Exam C. It’s hard for me to explain these exams because I don’t necessarily understand them either, I just know he has devoted months of studying to these exams. SOA stands for Society of Actuaries, and Exam C is short-hand for the type of content tested on the exam. Just imagine upper, upper-level math and statistics. He’s also planning to take the CFA exams (aka Corporate Finance, Portfolio Management, and Equity Investments). His ideal goal is to go back to grad school for his MBA at some point, but the goal is to get into a top 5 school. Luckily, Chicago is home to two of those schools, but I’m excited about whatever gets thrown at us. That’s the beauty of life–all the unexpected changes.
And dare I say it, I’ve been thinking about kids lately. That’s odd for me because I haven’t been overly excited about the prospect of being pregnant or ready for the impact a child will have on our life. I like the freedom I have to travel and to do my own thing. I also just haven’t felt “ready.” I like to be very sure about something before I dive in, especially when it involves something as permanent and life-altering as a child. But this has never meant that I never want children. In fact, I very much want children. You can never plan things out to a “T,” but this is still not the time to have children for us. I think in a few years we’ll be in a better position to have little ones running around. Ever since I can remember I have always wanted two little boys. I’ve never been much of a girly-girl, and I think that is where that yearning comes from. In any event, I’m looking forward to the future, whatever it may bringl.